yeah..

ok, im exhausted and i have to get up early...

hmmm, ok, a few things on my mind.  First, i just saw adventure land, and it was pretty cute.  I just dont know about kristen stuart...  ok, so i didnt really like that she was chosen to play bella, i feel like shes just to manly to play and ingénue, but then she drove me even more crazy today when she was like the same character in adventure land as in twilight, her signature "emotional" expression is this little sigh thing, i dont know

but the movie was cute, and the main boy was cute.  It was a good love story.

and i bought new clothes today, I AM SO BAD! I SHOP WAY TO MUCH! its an addiction, and ive tryed to get help, but its hard to find.

soooo, i got this great grey tank top, a high waisted black skirt (which is the item i set out to buy!) and this beautiful purple bikini with gold stiching.  all from H+M, maybe ill post pictures later.

Ive also been reading Vogue and Thrasher.... hahaha, isnt that funny that the two magazines im reading right now are vogure and thrasher?! 

ok, so that last part of the blog i wrote like two days ago...

but now im home, and im so upset that im like shaking.  I wont go into the details, but can i just say that i think that alot of people out there do not take their relationships and friendships with people younger than them seriously.  i mean, parents dont even take their jobs as parents seriously! and im sick and tired of it!  I think people need to care about something, and to step up to the plate and do whats right for the people around them.  I just care about my campers so much, so much that im crying right now thinking about them and how im so glad its not one of them in this situation, but how i know that they face stuff like this every day because this world is so fucked up and no one gives a shit, not even their parents. And sometimes i freak out when i think about how far away they are, and how i have no control over what happens to them.  All i get is one week... one week! and i get those 7 days to have as much positive influence as i possibly can... and then i send them out into this world and hope that they make smart choices, and figure out a way to be a good human being that makes this thing we call life a little easier for all of us.

im just sick of all the people around me that dont care about anything, that dont take them selves seriously.  That dont do anything for anyone, that think its enough to just "live life to the fullest" and leave... if we dont commit to making things better for each other why are we here?

it just breaks my heart... I miss Bailey, im crying because she is out there somewhere doing god knows what, and all i can do, is pray from the bottom of my heart that someone is doing right by her, because that little girl deserevs the whole freakin world, and im crying because... i dont think people are giving it to her.  and it just makes me so sad to realize that the people  around me, the people im closest with dont even get this.   I just hope that someone out there does, and that i find them.  

every young person deserves a chance. and i want to do everything i possibly can in my life time to give them that chance, and i pray every day that god lay the path in front of me that i can walk and do the most good.  that i can benefit as many children as i possibly can, to the largest extent possible.

and i just pray taht where ever Bailey is right now, she is safe, and loved, and happy.

i want that more than anything in this entire world.

i guess this issue tonight just brought out alot of emotions in me.  This blog was supposed to be about fashion and the cute new high wasted black skirt i got at H+M yesterday... but if you want to know what i really care about, what i really spend my time thinking about and doing, you just heard.

i think that everyone should go into this world and do the best they can to make it a better place for their fellow man, citizens, humans, whatever.  If where not her to do that? what the hell are we doing here?  And everyone has the ability to do this, and it just depends on whether they step up to the plate and decide to take on the challenge of making the world a better place.  And i just hope most of all that people enter into relationships with people, especially young people, with intention to do them some good.  To influence their life for the better, and that that relation ship is not about what they can gain from it, but what the younger person can.

i guess ill talk more about the highwaisted black skirt tomorrow.

I love you campers, wherever you are, i love you more than words can explain, and i hope you feel that in your heart, and i cant wait to see you this summer.